It's not about you

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you an expected end." Jeremiah 29:11

This verse popped up on my Bible app as the daily reading for November 14th and it caught my eye. In order to properly study any verse, it helps to know the full content and the entire story. I am familiar with the book Jeremiah, although maybe not as familiar as I should be. While I was perusing Google for commentaries on this subject I came across Jefferson Bethke's YouTube channel. He really did have a blunt and modern way of putting things when that history barrier intervenes.

Even though there is a plan that He has for us, it doesn't mean that it will all happen immediately or even at all. We as fallible humans like to make plans for OURSELVES and decide to sit and pray and hope and wait for God to hand us our plans thinking that what we want is what He wants for us too.

It is so easy for me to sit here and plan out my entire life and the life of my family. If anything the past two years has shown me is that my goals are nothing compared to what He wants for my children and I. Waiting for everything to fall into place and fit into this perfect little box I've made for myself has made me completely miss the opportunities God had been giving me this whole time. I missed everything He was doing in my life and my family's life. Instead of enjoy all those beautiful little opportunities that were being handed to me, I sat in my depression longing for the dreams I had made for myself. Something as simple as a beautiful sunrise and listening to the wind in the trees and the birds waking up could have been the beginning of a beautiful day. Basking in His simple glory should have been enough for me to smile and be thankful. Perhaps if I had paid more attention to those little details it would have been enough to give me the drive to do HIS doing. Instead I ignored them and basked in my own sadness and let all the chances to better myself, my family, and my community slip by. So what if I don't become an engineer like I planned? So what if I can't make it into the Reserves? Who cares if all my plans go astray. I'm here. I'm alive. I'm healthy and so are those I love.

I'm trying to become this person that I know He wants me to be. It's difficult but anything worth doing is going to be.

All I can do is leave it in His hands and know that I am well taken care of.

Like Jeff Bethke said, "Because He is good, because He is God, because He is Father, it WILL happen."